Tagged: talent

The end of today

Well, it’s not really the end of the day for me yet. I mean, yeah, I’m home from work. And I’ve done the dishes. And took care of the cats. Now I’m sitting here, like, what am I doing with my life right now? The simple answer: I have no idea.

I’ve been crocheting like a madwoman for the last few days. I feel like I’m almost done with the blanket I started for my fiance, like, over a year ago. I don’t know where the motivation came from. I’m trying to find the motivation to paint. My fiance bought me a ton of acrylic paints, canvas and new brushes. Fucking awesome, right? It would be even more awesome if I felt like I had ANY talent when it comes to painting LOL.

I don’t really have a talent…like the type of talent that makes people say,”Wow, she’s talented.” I don’t think I paint well, I don’t really dance, I don’t play sports. I don’t DO anything that requires talent LOL ugh. My fiance, my sisters, and my parents like my paintings. They think I’m talented at painting. And I’m just like, well, they don’t know what good art is then lol. Hmm, what else do I do? Well, as far as the crocheting, I’m really only good a single crochet, which is super basic lol. So, no real talent there. I rock climb but I’m not the best. I try hard and I’ve definitely progressed. There’s one woman I climb with that adores my climbing “talent”. Like, seriously, she’s like my “fan”. It’s flattering, naturally. But it’s so hard for me to accept her compliments. Apparently it’s hard for me to accept ANY compliments now that I think about it lol. How do I work on that? LOL. Why didn’t I talk to my therapist about this at all yesterday?

I think I should probably try to figure out what I’m going to eat for dinner. I’m thinking egg noodles. Or I could have eggs. I didn’t buy junk food before coming home from work…and I’m definitely in for the night. I wish I bought chips.

Alright, that’s all I’ve got for now. I’ll probably eat and then crochet while watching Netflix. Bob’s Burgers.

Goodnight!