Well, it’s not really the end of the day for me yet. I mean, yeah, I’m home from work. And I’ve done the dishes. And took care of the cats. Now I’m sitting here, like, what am I doing with my life right now? The simple answer: I have no idea.
I’ve been crocheting like a madwoman for the last few days. I feel like I’m almost done with the blanket I started for my fiance, like, over a year ago. I don’t know where the motivation came from. I’m trying to find the motivation to paint. My fiance bought me a ton of acrylic paints, canvas and new brushes. Fucking awesome, right? It would be even more awesome if I felt like I had ANY talent when it comes to painting LOL.
I don’t really have a talent…like the type of talent that makes people say,”Wow, she’s talented.” I don’t think I paint well, I don’t really dance, I don’t play sports. I don’t DO anything that requires talent LOL ugh. My fiance, my sisters, and my parents like my paintings. They think I’m talented at painting. And I’m just like, well, they don’t know what good art is then lol. Hmm, what else do I do? Well, as far as the crocheting, I’m really only good a single crochet, which is super basic lol. So, no real talent there. I rock climb but I’m not the best. I try hard and I’ve definitely progressed. There’s one woman I climb with that adores my climbing “talent”. Like, seriously, she’s like my “fan”. It’s flattering, naturally. But it’s so hard for me to accept her compliments. Apparently it’s hard for me to accept ANY compliments now that I think about it lol. How do I work on that? LOL. Why didn’t I talk to my therapist about this at all yesterday?
I think I should probably try to figure out what I’m going to eat for dinner. I’m thinking egg noodles. Or I could have eggs. I didn’t buy junk food before coming home from work…and I’m definitely in for the night. I wish I bought chips.
Alright, that’s all I’ve got for now. I’ll probably eat and then crochet while watching Netflix. Bob’s Burgers.
I’m not even sure why I’m posting anything. I don’t really have anything like super important to share.
Today was my younger (youngest) sister’s 22nd birthday. We decorated my parent’s house with all sorts of glow in the dark things. I got to give her the painting I did for her. And a bunch of plants for her new apartment. She’s been asking for a housewarming painting from me since she moved into her new place lol.
I also gave my older (oldest) sister a small painting…a belated birthday gift lol since her birthday was in December.
And I gave my aunt a small cat painting today. She loved it. She loves cats just as much as I do.
I SHOULD be sleeping. Or at least in bed trying to sleep. I’m exhausted but anxious. Anxious for no real reason. I told my fiance I’d set my alarm for around 9 am so we can go climbing at the gym. I haven’t been climbing in like a week. My schedule just hasn’t allowed me to go as often as I’d like, as often as we used to. But hopefully we’ll get back on track and start going three days a week again. My body needs it. It’s the only true physical activity that I do lol.
Alright, I’m going to try to sleep. Hopefully it’s not too hard to get out of bed in the morning.